Rawda 8

Rawda – 8
“A Heartfelt Conversation with the Messenger (S.A.W.)”
(The place where the unspoken is heard)

In the Rawda, I fell silent...
Yet within me, a flowing conversation began.
No words came from my lips,
but my heart spoke to him.

“Ya RasulAllah...” I whispered,
“I have come...
But I have come burdened with days
in which I did not live by your Sunnah,
in which I forgot to remember your name every morning.”

“What the Heart Speaks...”

“Ya RasulAllah...” my soul lamented.
“I was proud to be of your ummah,
yet I never found the courage to live like you.

I knew for what cause you were stoned,
yet I could not even bear to be hurt for a single word.

Your tears were for your ummah,
but mine were always for myself...”

This silent conversation echoed in the tears streaming from my eyes.
Each tear a regret,
each sigh an apology.

“The Most Beautiful State of Humility”

To speak in the presence of the Messenger is not easy...
For with every glance at his mercy,
your own neglect grows heavy within you.

“Ya RasulAllah...” you whisper,
“I have fallen so far from you...
Yet here I am.

Not to simply meet you,
but to weep in the hope of being worthy of you.”

And suddenly you realize...
this conversation needs no words.
For he (S.A.W.) is the Prophet
who gently reads even the silence of his ummah.

“A Prayer...”

At the end of this intimate conversation,
a sentence slowly escapes from my heart:

“Ya RasulAllah... You never abandoned us.
You loved your ummah.
You lived for us, prayed for us, wept for us.

Now I, too, promise once more
to live for your sake.”

These heartfelt words become an oath of the heart.
And in that moment, you feel that all the burdens of shame
buried in the soil of Rawda
have been transformed into mercy.

Özer Akpınar
Researcher – Historian